Normal.. as normal as it can be..

She came for a short trip last weekend.

How time flies, it’s Friday again. Last week today, we shopped till we dropped. It has been so long since I last shopped that way. Since forever..

I missed her presence right after she left. There’s something missing in my life. Something to do, something to count on..

Our lives went back to normal.. and normal is really normal..

Silently, I wish our project could launch successfully..

"jia you" JJ...

Thanks to friends who dropped by to give a few words of encouragement.

She is now back to hospital for further treatment. Thyroid removed in the operation last month was tested cancer positive. Though doctor said it was a successful operation, she had to be treated to be out of risk, completely.

When she told me she had her thyroid removed in Chinese, I didn’t understand. Then she said she has to avoid eating food with “dian”, which left me clueless, I guess its iodine. No seafood, no outside food that contains salts with “dian”.

Just now, I surfed the net for more clues. Now, I think I know more about thyroid cancer patients. They have to rely on thyroxine tablets to replace the hormones that would normally be made by the thyroid gland. Without thyroid hormones, they will feel extremely tired and lacking in energy.

What’s most important now, COMPLETE cancer-free. As usual, I pray for her. I can’t wait to see her again in June, apparently our last hug on Sat wasn’t the last one, and I do not need to be in Beijing to see her the next time, not just yet. :-)

I'm praying for her

She is never sick. She is healthy, bubbly and chatty. One medical check-up changed our lives. Doc found thyroid as big as 25mm on her right side.

I seldom go online at night. I was on MSN that fateful night. She was online, to chat with bf at overseas. Then she greeted me, telling me they had medical check-up arranged by company in the day. I said “ok, so, how was it?” I asked casually because I have never thought we would find anything just with a check-up, when we are up healthy and bubbly.

“Hyperthyroid”, she told me.

“You sure?”

“Yes, and I need to go for operation”, she added.

“OK, when will that be?” I asked.

“I am not too sure, probably early May.”

“I hope I can make a trip to visit you then.”

Then, she went for second opinion in different hospital. The result is the same, she has to undergo an operation to get it out, coz the doctors are not sure if the tumour is malign.

I know, everyone will tell me, this operation ain’t a major one, and people survived these operations. But I am saddened, not just by the fact that she has to get her neck operated, but the thought of we are parting for good. I felt so sad I cried hard. Was my last trip there when I hugged her was for the last time? Would I have an opportunity to see her again?

“This working environment may not be suitable for me. I think my health deteriorated” This sentence keeps ringing in my head.

I know with her leaving, it’s for her own good. I wish her the best. We are fated to be each other’s good friend despite our differences in nationality, mentality, culture, age and bringing-up. We are already thousands of miles away; she’ll be further where I can’t visit every other month.

“Please check with doctor what you can eat to heal faster after the operation. I’ll bring over some “shen yu” essence for speedy healing. What else is needed….”

She is going to be admitted tomorrow. Operation scheduled to be on Monday. She called just now to say a few words, and I asked her to take care. It was awkward; I wanted to tell her that I’ll pray for her. But she doesn’t believe in God.

I pray for her well being. I wish I could be with her.

Catching up with J...

Feel a bit feverish, with extremely bad throat and itchy nose. Wondering if it’s because there is no schedule to travel anytime soon? Hehe.. lame.. I know.. but it felt like been months since I last traveled. :-)

I was supposed to meet K for Warlords and dinner on Sat after my facial at JE. Then, I planned to meet J for a drink or something at Bishan. Then, J smsed saying she can meet earlier coz she wasn’t occupied. So, I kelam-kabut made a decision. Fly K plane. :-p Never mind, guys don’t mind that much. Hehehe…

Met up with J whom I have not met for donkey years at Bugis instead. She is seconded to Sg for a year. It was drizzling and we had early dinner at V8, my favorite restaurant. Then, we went to pray at the temple and shopped around. God, been time since I walked that much. Now that I think about it, my fever maybe caused by the rain that day… :-(

Quoting YJ, it feels good to catch up with an old friend….. :-)

Fansee

Started off writing blogs in Friendster to share books I read, then when Friendster couldn't contain anymore blog, I moved to this page. Well, I first started this blog to pen down my thoughts. But as you noticed, my little world is a bit commercialised now. :-)

Well, who would refused "easy money". When I say easy money, it doesn't mean that it's really easy. It's rather difficult to write with a topic fixed. And that is what we have to do, to blog about the opportunities we grab. It's getting easier now, I can easily write more than the required number of words and sometimes, just can't stop because I love some of the topics I grabbed.

As I mentioned in my previous post, Fiona is my mentor in this paid blogging and she is my loyal blogger fansee. :-) I am also her fansee. Hehe.. It is easier for me to understand when she rant about anything in her life, because we have known each other more than half of our lives. :-)

For sure, Chris was a fansee when I wrote in Friendster. I am not sure if she is still reading my blog when I transferred here. But then, I guess she has just given birth to be able to read or write blog. :-) Congrats there on the arrival of the second precious gem. :-)

I know there are people out there who read my blog, but not bloggers. So, I can't name them. Can't even trace them. :-(

Those were the days....

You know when we were in school, clubs or societies in school had this fund raising activities by selling tiny little things ie. chocs, candies, hanky & etc called “REQUEST”. We were given a piece of ‘order form’ to fill in and pay for our orders, ie. to who, in which class, message and from who. So, when the day is up, the committee will distribute these ‘requests’ and many people will get surprise ‘little gift’. It could be birthday wish, secret admirer, friendships, apologies, anything in the world we could think of. There were even times, when ‘requests’ were sent so romantically and creatively meaningful, for example, if the girl’s name is MAY, the sender will send 3 ‘requests’ with messages: M - May you be well; A - and happy because; Y – You are my everything. Something of that sort. :-)

Well, I went through some old junks back at home. Ya, these stuffs I left at home are sentimental. Those were the ‘requests’ I received when we were in schools. And I found all the birthday cards I received over the years, not to mention, CNY cards, X’mas greetings. They are still well kept, over a decade. :-p Last but not least, letters I received from a pen pal I know in year 1997 and letters and birthday cards my friends sent when I was in university. Wow, that time, snail mail was popular, and I remember SMSes started only when I was in first year.

I wonder if card makers are going down the drain nowadays, since e-greetings are more popular, and I think unless it is absolutely necessary, we wouldn’t bother buying a card, write and send via post. It’s troublesome and not efficient. :-p

So, I went through those letters my pen pal, SY wrote. Starting in year 1997, up to when I went to Penang, he wrote to hostel. Met him perhaps once a year then. Not sure what happened after that, coz we didn’t write to each other anymore. I last heard he was getting married, and this was like years back. I sent him a sms testing if he is still using the same number. He replied and yes, everything comes back to us. Hahaha… he is still very into badminton, got married year 2005. Wow… time flies.. :-)

Everyone is happy… :-)

I went to SABians’96 reunion today. It was good. Met up with friends whom I have not met for 11 years, that’s slightly over a decade you know. And I was surprised to meet YY, a primary schoolmate, whom I have not met for 15 years, there gone a 1.5 decades.

Time flies… we caught up with each other, updating each other of what we are doing. Mommies exchanged experience and advices, and those in S club exchanged life experiences.

Felt really good, though I dreaded reunion. It was not too bad. I am glad I made it this time. And I silently made another promise to myself, that I will try to keep in touch with as many people as possible.

A short update:-
KW’s wife gave birth to a baby daughter on the eve of CNY, named Miracle.
YC and JT gave birth to baby daughters before X’mas.
SO is 6.5 months pregnant.
JL is 4 months into pregnancy now.
My cousin, CW’s BIG day is in Sept’07.
CL’s BIG day is in Oct’07.
YC’s BIG day is in Nov’07.

Then, again........

Should be published on 7th Nov'06

Dad complained that a guy friend of mine called the home phone and asked for my number in Sg, RUDELY. Well, whoever it is, please call and talk nicely to my parents. I have tons of friends, so, you replying that you are a friend is like.......

I missed SILAI very much, tried calling her yesterday on her mobile phone but she didn't pick up. What the heck, scared the hell out of me. It has been quite some time since she talked to me online. So, I smsed her hubby in Pg and asked if everything is OK. In the meantime, I got her Sbg home phone number from Fiona and tried calling. Thank God, she answered the phone but sounded out of breath. Then, my blood boiled, she was mopping the floor when no one was at home! Me, being protective as usual, surely not happy. In fact, I was kind of angry. She said it is easier to mop the floor when no on is at home, so they won't complain the floor is wet. Hello, who in the world mop the floor without water???

Fiona said pregnant woman should move more for easy labor. I understand but... still boiling... SILAI then smsed me asked me not to be too anxious, she's fine and she thought of me too. She thought I avoided her coz I forgot to get her the grapes. I didn't keep my words, AGAIN. She said I was supposed to be back during Raya, but I didn't take the long weekend coz flew back to Sg only on Deepavali.

Actually, I am really proud of SILAI. She's a real independent woman. Hubby not by her side all the time. Each time, I try to be protective, overly protective, coz she's always the SILAI I know in high school, the gentle demure pretty girl I spent years with. I really wish to see her growing tummy and be there with her, for her during the pregnancy. :-)