Thursday, October 02, 2008

She is safe and sound...

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“How are you feeling today?” I asked her at almost 10am.

“A bit painful now….”, she replied.

“What? Painful? And you are still at work?”

“Ya, I am trying to understand if it’s real pain, or Braxton Hicks.”

“What is Braxton Hicks?” I asked.

“Check in the internet lar..”

So, I checked, apparently Braxton Hicks is false labour contractions. Meaning, false alarm. After a while, I checked on her.

“Are you still there?”

“Yes, if I go offline, then, I am home already”

Hours later, I saw that she was offline. So, I sent a sms. She replied at 3+.

“Already done.”

I felt touched and happy for her at the same time. I remember how she told me she is scared of what will happen during labour and stuffs like that. I was so emotional when I told M.

Then Sab messaged from Melbourne, saying she heard J gave birth to a baby boy.

“Why does everyone know you gave birth to a baby boy but me ah?”

“I thought I smsed you to tell you I already delivered? They called and asked about the gender.”

“How come you told me you were expecting a princess when you were still pregnant ah?”

She replied me late at night, “I also don’t know what the gender wo, most people tell me I am carrying a gal.”

“Anyway, I am happy for you, sleep well, it’s late.”

“Thank you.. anyway there’s no such thing as late.. newborn doesn’t know that night is for sleeping..”

There goes my best friend. Always have things to say about whatever I bring up. And that was the closest I could be with her this time. The last, I wasn’t really around, and it was heartbreaking to know she was rather lonely when she was waiting for labour. This time round, I am very near, I almost felt the joy.

Now I look at babies, I have so much emotion stirring inside. I am touched, happy, joyous, pity and feel suffocated at the same time. Perhaps that’s why they always say, you’ll never be prepared by what kids will bring.

But I hope the best for her, wish the best for her, and wish I could be with her all the time when she needed me.

Monday, September 29, 2008

Princess @ A&W

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Wednesday, May 28, 2008

"jia you" JJ...

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Thanks to friends who dropped by to give a few words of encouragement.

She is now back to hospital for further treatment. Thyroid removed in the operation last month was tested cancer positive. Though doctor said it was a successful operation, she had to be treated to be out of risk, completely.

When she told me she had her thyroid removed in Chinese, I didn’t understand. Then she said she has to avoid eating food with “dian”, which left me clueless, I guess its iodine. No seafood, no outside food that contains salts with “dian”.

Just now, I surfed the net for more clues. Now, I think I know more about thyroid cancer patients. They have to rely on thyroxine tablets to replace the hormones that would normally be made by the thyroid gland. Without thyroid hormones, they will feel extremely tired and lacking in energy.

What’s most important now, COMPLETE cancer-free. As usual, I pray for her. I can’t wait to see her again in June, apparently our last hug on Sat wasn’t the last one, and I do not need to be in Beijing to see her the next time, not just yet. :-)

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

I'm praying for her

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She is never sick. She is healthy, bubbly and chatty. One medical check-up changed our lives. Doc found thyroid as big as 25mm on her right side.

I seldom go online at night. I was on MSN that fateful night. She was online, to chat with bf at overseas. Then she greeted me, telling me they had medical check-up arranged by company in the day. I said “ok, so, how was it?” I asked casually because I have never thought we would find anything just with a check-up, when we are up healthy and bubbly.

“Hyperthyroid”, she told me.

“You sure?”

“Yes, and I need to go for operation”, she added.

“OK, when will that be?” I asked.

“I am not too sure, probably early May.”

“I hope I can make a trip to visit you then.”

Then, she went for second opinion in different hospital. The result is the same, she has to undergo an operation to get it out, coz the doctors are not sure if the tumour is malign.

I know, everyone will tell me, this operation ain’t a major one, and people survived these operations. But I am saddened, not just by the fact that she has to get her neck operated, but the thought of we are parting for good. I felt so sad I cried hard. Was my last trip there when I hugged her was for the last time? Would I have an opportunity to see her again?

“This working environment may not be suitable for me. I think my health deteriorated” This sentence keeps ringing in my head.

I know with her leaving, it’s for her own good. I wish her the best. We are fated to be each other’s good friend despite our differences in nationality, mentality, culture, age and bringing-up. We are already thousands of miles away; she’ll be further where I can’t visit every other month.

“Please check with doctor what you can eat to heal faster after the operation. I’ll bring over some “shen yu” essence for speedy healing. What else is needed….”

She is going to be admitted tomorrow. Operation scheduled to be on Monday. She called just now to say a few words, and I asked her to take care. It was awkward; I wanted to tell her that I’ll pray for her. But she doesn’t believe in God.

I pray for her well being. I wish I could be with her.

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Kinsella's Latest: Remember Me?

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I was in Kinokuniya, and I caught a glimpse of this and uttered “OMG”…..

Oh yes, been months since I visited Kinsella’s website, and I didn’t know this book was in the making. True as it is, one book a year, and the wait…? Worthy :-)

But it cost thirty over dollars, the last bought I book at thirty over dollars was Shopaholic & Baby, last year. :-p I hardly rent anymore, to reduce cost. Cost of living is rising, I have to try to save more. :-p

Confessions of a Shopaholic movie is in the making. I am suppressing my hope and expectation. Seeing it on movie and reading it will be totally different, this I must plant in my mind before feeling disappointed again, just like what Memoirs of a Geisha and Da Vinci code did. :-(

But then, it’s something to look forward to…. :-) Long live Kinsella….

Monday, March 24, 2008

I am proud of her...

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I was very tired this morning, feeling very sleepy when I dragged myself out of the bed, thinking to myself, it’s going to be a long week ahead.

Before I started work, I checked my personal email, and saw she wrote some messages to my friendster account. She asked why I didn’t reply her message previously and why am I so stuck-up, "cutting" myself from friends especially her. :-( Knowing she was online right there and then, I log onto eBuddy to chat with her.

She found a job in KL. She said her temper is getting worse looking after baby, she has to get away. Working is the best option. I agree. Remember I have been nagging her to look for a job almost a year ago, so she will keep herself occupied and keep up with the world. It was tough coz she was in Pg, no one to take care of baby.

Her news made my day, just like when I got to know she was expecting, I was so touched I cried. This time, she reached me as soon as she found the job. No longer feel that tired. I feel so proud of her.
And I missed her terribly....

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

My very first snow [flakes] experience....

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Stone pointed to my back and said “look, Colleen!”

I turned to my back, saw nothing, turned back to him and asked, blankly, “what?”

Stone said, excitedly, “It’s snowing!!”

I turned again, trying my very best to contain my excitement. “Really?” and stared hard through the glasses.

“Oh my God….”

“You can go out there and touch them….”, Stone added.

Well, I was in a meeting, mind you, so, I decided to give it a pass. But, secretly, I stared through the glasses, again and again, again and again.

Finally, Stone said “ok, let’s take a break”.

I went to my bag and got the camera out. I asked JianPing to take some pictures and a video of me, “playing” with the flakes. God, the feeling was good.

It was romantic. It looked just like in the movie…. That was my first snow [flakes] experience. :-)

Before Stone left, he said, “tomorrow morning, when you wake up, there will be snow everywhere…” I am so full of hope. :-p

[I will be in Wuxi for the rest of the week, except for a day trip to Chengdu on Thursday. Heard that it’s likely to snow in Chengdu on Thursday! Can’t wait….]

Monday, January 07, 2008

Catching up with J...

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Feel a bit feverish, with extremely bad throat and itchy nose. Wondering if it’s because there is no schedule to travel anytime soon? Hehe.. lame.. I know.. but it felt like been months since I last traveled. :-)

I was supposed to meet K for Warlords and dinner on Sat after my facial at JE. Then, I planned to meet J for a drink or something at Bishan. Then, J smsed saying she can meet earlier coz she wasn’t occupied. So, I kelam-kabut made a decision. Fly K plane. :-p Never mind, guys don’t mind that much. Hehehe…

Met up with J whom I have not met for donkey years at Bugis instead. She is seconded to Sg for a year. It was drizzling and we had early dinner at V8, my favorite restaurant. Then, we went to pray at the temple and shopped around. God, been time since I walked that much. Now that I think about it, my fever maybe caused by the rain that day… :-(

Quoting YJ, it feels good to catch up with an old friend….. :-)

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