When happiness turns bitter...

It wasn’t until recently when I get to know about one of old schoolmate’s broken marriage that I gave a thought to divorce issues.

I mean, divorce is a norm in Sg society, but I have never given it a deep thought.

I felt especially bad for my old friend coz I am enjoying married life. But her case felt like a slap on my face. I shouldn’t be sharing too much happiness on Facebook. I should be considerate enough to friends who are single, broken relationship, broken engagement, broken marriage, broken family, etc.

Thus, I seldom update my status now. I am trying my best to keep low profile.

Sometimes, I wonder, and that’s what I asked hubby.

“How does a loving marriage turns into so bad?”

So bad that the almost-ex hubby had to “kidnap” their baby of 1 year old?

When we marry, we were so in love, happily adding the family member.. thought we could live happily ever after.

“Happily ever after” does not happen to everyone…

While I hope my friend able to find her daughter as quickly as possible, I also wish those who are in love will be in love forever…..

Round #1 : KO

We thought we’ve got baby fish in my tummy.

When I started spotting lightly on Sat, about 10 days after ovulation, I thought we have strike ToTo. For the next 6 days, I kept spotting lightly, started with very light pink, to very light brown. Just a drop everyday.

Menses wasn’t due until today. I am rather disappointed. Hubby is too.

I can imagine the anxiety in couple when they keep trying. There is menses cycle to lookout to, ovulation, the right day, the right time, and then it stops. The waiting game then begins. Will the menses come?

Maybe.. maybe not..

And when there’s slight change in the body, every little thing relates back to PREGNANCY.

Could we have done it?

Maybe.. maybe not..

We hope for the best, wish for better luck…

Till Round #2 begins.. :-)

Baby fish, go on... swim....

Last week, I saw my cousin’s latest picture on Facebook, and her friend commented she’ll become mummy soon. I called my mum and confirmed the good news. I feel happy for her and hubby, who happened to be my high schoolmate.

Meanwhile, I have something to share about what I think of pregnancy or kids in general.

When I was younger, I couldn’t stand the sight parents handling mischievous kids, yelling kids, naughty kids, whatever you call the little monsters. Sometimes, I feel like strangling them when they yell and scream on top of their lung.

When I just got married, I know I didn’t really want kids. Partly because hubby is way older, partly because I can’t really believe I can be responsible enough.

Then, hubby said he wants a daughter, to complete our family.

After much considerations and many real life experience around us, that is, many friends got pregnant, gave birth, have 1st kid, 2nd kid and so on, I started to long for one myself.

I started to notice pregnant woman, cute babies, but I still hate naughty crying kids.

We started trying last month, for real. Supposedly, we started trying since June, but our project has never been able to launch successfully...

The lot I’ve got from the Kuan Yin Temple told me that the baby fish is swimming unhurriedly. I’ll have to be patient, and when the patience is stretched to limit, then, my body will change, pregnancy will occur.

So, we nicknamed our yet-to-conceive “baby fish”.

Jenn told me about the article she read the other day, about a woman had IVF treatment for all her 4 kids. She said there’ll be help even if I cannot conceive, so I don’t have to worry.

I asked her, how long does it take to tell when I need IVF treatment?

3 years, she said.

3 years?!?!

3 years: 36 months
1 month: 5 times (10th, 12th, 14th, 16th, 18th day)

That is 180 times before you tell me about infertility?!?! Do you know how tiring is that? Both physically and mentally. :-(

She said “why you count like that one”. :-p

She asked me to stop taking coffee; I told her I can’t do it. I can only try to reduce, but that is as far as I could try.

I also boiled Bak Chen and Bai Foong Wan, but these efforts made me even more tired, I felt stressed.

I really hope we can be successful this month, and then we can share good news during CNY.

All we can do is only pray…

And God, for once, I think we are ready…. :-)

Time flies...

It’s soon beginning of a new year.

We’ll be officially married for 1 year in January.

I’ll be celebrating 2nd CNY away from home in February.

Baby brother will be registering his marriage in August.

And will hold the customary in October.

And so the time will continue to fly without mercy.

Garmin-Asus M20.. answer to my prayer..?

As well known as I am among the colleagues for someone who can laugh out real loud, I am also well known for my lack-of, or should I say almost non-existence orientation in the street.

For as long as I could remember, I have never been able to reach my destination without much sweat and direction asking.

I could alight 2 bus stops earlier to work and had to take another bus for the remaining bus stops.

I could take the wrong exit from the MRT and have no freaking idea on where I was and how to get to my destination.

I could have few people teaching me how to go to places I wanted to go and still, the best way to get me there safely, was to take the cab.

Once, I took bus from Aljunied MRT, to go home in Hougang. But I took a bus and didn't know where it was heading to, and I alighted at a bus stop I thought somewhere near a location I could recognised. But to realise I was somewhere near Eunos MRT and I had to take another bus to go home again.

Hubby bought Garmin-Nuvi GPS as my Xmas gift last year. He was afraid I couldn't find my way when I drive. But he's driving most of the times, I wish I could have a more mobile GPS so I will not get lost, ever again.

Garmin-Asus M20 sounds like the answer to my prayer.

It is a very stylish touchphone, with unbelievable functions.

Comes with high speed internet, using Windows Mobile Pro, it comes with a 3MP camera and 4GB memory. How cool..

What's more, the navigation function is COOL!

It comes with a voice prompted, turn-by-turn directions that speaks street names. Cool!

It can also be optimised to be used in car with included car mount. Cool!

The best part... jeng jeng jeng... it has the "Where Am I" safety feature that displays user's current address and nearest police station, hospital, and fuel services in just one click. COOL HUH!